== Oh i just hate this ==

im pretty darn sure that this guy that im goin to talk about wont read my blog soo...yeah (please endure w/ me...it might get a bit emotional up in here...)

soooo, i just got a call from one of my really close guy friends = and he wanted me to help him out w/ this girl problem.
apparently, both this girl and my friend is both in a play together and he has "fallen" for her....he asked me if he should really ask her out on sunday cause right now, he thinks that sunday is too much of a wait. im really glad that he has found this girl and that hes happy but ---->
when he told me about this, i felt really hurt because hes not only my best guy friend, but hes also my ex. i guess im feeling jealous cause i suddenly wanted to go up to that girl and slap her (okay!!! i *AM* jealous) but its kinda hard to hold it in.

this is the guy who has given me my first kiss, and yet hes also the one whos broken my heart several times. last time, he was confused about his sexuality, so he decided to turn gay. but what i didnt know was that when he was "gay" he was also crushing/flirting with this girl called Katie....now what the hell am i supposed to think??? and NOW, hes not gay...but BI. CAN HE POSSIBLY MAKE UP HIS MIND????????????? (sry about the caps)

*sigh* im pretty sure i still "like" him = tho idk y (maybe im just too naive) but im also pretty sure that we might never b able to "go out" again...well as long as my anti-jason dad is around....
i will rant on latr..........